Got the sudden urge to use blogger. So poks, relink. :)

Play for the fun of it, that's why I love balling. Winning is secondary, enjoyment is more important. Perhaps that's why I don't really like Blaze, HAH. It's a competitive world out there, but I don't like that.

"You can enjoy the game and win."

I realised through the tournaments I've participated in, when I win, I feel like shit. And if Coach's really pissed and upset with us, the only way is to fight hard in a game just to lose it, and that's when we get her back, to talk to us at the very least. HAH, that's the best way to torture someone mentally isn't it? 

Today I went to play ball with janice, vivien, perle, sk and jiajie! <33333333333333333333333333333333333333333
It's so fun throughout the whole game, we saw a hunk (HAS A FEMININE BUILD; you know what, imagine a guy with a black-purple strip shirt and skinnies) , a small jiajie (a.k.a XIAO PANG! jiajie is tall and skinny compared to him; note the last 3 words), and Rongming (The one on reality show "Never say die"? Yea you got it.) HAHAH.

1) SK shooting
     He doesn't aim. 

2) Jiajie fast break
     You see him charging from half court down with the darn momentum, quietly anticipating a perfect lay-up. Halfway you realise there's something strange and he seems out of control. Next, he ran out of court after nearly tripping over the ball. "AH CRAMP"

HAHA, we were practically disgracing ourselves at the court, but I guess that's also the reason why the kids love to spar with us so much! ^^ Popular leh. We thought of doing some WARM-UPS to scare the kids off, eg. sprinting together from one end to the other, pretending to be some godlight players. We do a whoosh before we go on court, or rather, attempt to do one. HAH. Then you know the hunk, yes the one that leave your nose bleeding. He kept emphasizing on the fact that they start the ball because they're lower secondary and we're upper secondary (I never knew we looked so old). He expressed it in this manner "We start the ball 'cos we 5 on 6 (already trying to come up with excuses just in case they lost) and we short pants (short pants=lower secondary)", repeatedly. Seems like the only way to shoot them down is "no pants". (It's okay if you don't get it, requires some L4/7 inference)

Alot more stupid stuffs, but I doubt the effect's good on black and white.

lol, and SK is really impressive when he chiongs. AND HE SCORED A GOAL TODAY! lol. 

HAH, that's a short summary of what happened today! :)

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Vivien's got gastric this morning, and it's damn bad. BUT XINLING SAVES THE DAY. Okay, pok eat reguarly. Take care.

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Fellow poks reading this entry, take care too! =D

Hi world, 

on a scale of 1-10, rate your happiness level.

Life is oxymoronic. 
I know how important this year is but I just can't get my ass down to work.
I love to play ball but I feel out-of-place in Blaze.
I wished that someone can understand me but I don't bother explaining myself at times.
I love my mum but I always vent my frustrations on her.
I want to express my concerns for my friends but I turned away.
I want to give up netball but something told me to stay.
I've got so much to say but I kept quiet.

Seriously, why did I even land in this state. The enthusiasm, talkativeness, they're gone and have been replaced by my mp3. No I'm not like that. Just what happened to me over these 2 years. 

Don't think I'm happy just because I do ridiculous stuff infront of you. The more ridiculous I get, the more unhappy I am. And, don't think you know me very well.

I need to explode.

Ignorance is bliss, really.

I'm becoming like a living dead, progressively. Sometimes I think why I'm not born retarded, haha, like AH WANG in Life Made Simple. I'm not one who hankers after monetary wealth, neither do I see it as the MUST in my life, but I realised I'll sooner or later be forced and sucked into this vicious cycle. I just like to be with my friends and family, how hard can that be? I don't mind being poor, certainly there are things rich people can never achieve, like happiness. Alright, I'm just being selfish, that's the bottomline.

My mum hints that she wants to live in a "yang fang" when I start to earn money, and she wants to go on a holiday, and she feels that no qualifications equates to gone. Everyday she tells me how complicated this society is, and attempt to brainwash me that no one can be absolutely trusted whenever she finds an example from TV serials. 

It's such a pity that we no longer have the "die-together" spirit, it's everyone for him/herself. HAH, I think I'm really helpless when confronted with the world. 

I don't have the stamina to work hard for O levels this time round. I know how good a timing it is to be feeling such slackness and lethargicness in my daily life now. Hell with O levels.  All those "try try try never say die" are nonsense to me now. Everyone needs to rest, just that I've chosen a bad timing. But this very fact is screwing me up pretty badly. I'm not kidding when I say I've no longer got any drive/deternination like in Secondary 1-3. Seriously. I'm a perfectionist. Either I do it, or I don't try at all. This time I'm pretty sure that I don't want to do it. A perfect life is one that's scarred, I believe.

Geraldine says "There's no such things as best friend anymore".
BUT I DO WANT TO FIND ONE.  =D

The world's too busy to even stop and stare.

We all need, a person who can be true to you.

Anyway, we've returned victorious by clinching 3rd in the Zone. Whee! 3 cheers for AHS. Maybe you might think it wasn't that much of a deal because we only got 3rd, but it's the process that made the whole thing so memorable. You should've seen us fight. The match should've started at 1pm, so that supporters were able to make it for the game, but nevertheless, we played a deserving game. =D

It all started with something called momentum. PLMGS obviously got it before we did, so in the 2nd quarter, they managed to thrash us and lead with a comfortable margin of 8 goals. !&@^$^%&. Apparently, we got leepuimand-ed, AGAIN. NOT AGAIN. But it didn't bothered us.

Coach: *Scolding the defenders like how she always do" -.-
Coach: So do you have anything else to say?
Louisa: It was leeying who let the GA run in! (The moment we heard her tone, we knew it was a matter of sooner or later before war breaks out between the two who had been at loggerheads with each other)
Coach: "GET OUT"
Louisa: *Hesistating*
Coach: "GET OUT NOW"
Louisa: *Hesistating*
Coach: "I SAID GET OUT NOW"
Louisa: *Walks out*

Okay, with one main player down, we knew we had to wake up. Then
Alicia: "Okay people, dont panic okay. Calm down calm down"
Everyone: *???? surfacing because obviously Alicia was the one being so tensed up while the rest of us were okay, anyway we were speechless*
Me: *Really frustrated and thought that Alicia was talking BS* "I think you're the one that's tensed up, you should be the one relaxing"

After the game I realised everyone was thinking about the same thing as me but nobody dare to say anything, lol...

Twist of fate. We got the momentum this time round and went on a scoring streak and goals sailed through our nets like hotcakes. HAH! The crowd was ROARING with cheers and it got louder with every subsequent interception, shot, everything. :) That is really motivating. SAC and TKGS cheered for us too, and we completely shut PLMGS up. Who says we've got no fighting spirit. When we show our prowess, even a supportive school like PLMGS is helpless. =D

Then elize-jie fell step right into a drain. LMAO. At that instance I was shocked, thinking that she might've sprained her ankle or something. Surprisingly, she recovered straight away as if nothing happened lah. Strong girl. =D Bet I'll cry and make a fuss out of the hole in the drain if I were her, and I'd most probably end up being carried back to the stadium, that's provided if someone is willing to carry me.

Coach did not want to take a picture with us after prize presentation, neither did is she ready to forgive Louisa. Zzz.

Team dinner at Airport! =D We went to Fish&Co. We reached the side entrance first, then there's this label that says 'Please swim to the main entrance"
So Cihui and I swam breaststroke all the way to the entrance with the puzzled crowd looking at us. (Y)
I'm pretty sure we sent the waiter up in fury when we repeatedly requested for Curry sauce, lolol. We had an enjoyable time with Cihui's spastic facial expressions. =) Pictures below. 



After dinner, we went to CandyEmpire. Bon Voyage to AmandaPe and I went home with Wanqi because the match in the afternoon drained me of all my energy. Sleep is the best thing on earth. 

I LOVE MY BED. <3
Went to watch L changes the world on Thursday, haha. Sorry something's wrong with my timeline. Yes I may sound dumb, but I actually cried when the movie came near the end. And Kenichi Matsuyama looks reallllllly handsome, especially up close. (Y)(Y)

Physics remedial early Monday morning, had a hard time dragging myself out of bed. Trust me to not bring my calculator when I'm going for physics class, it's like not bringing wallet when I'm going to school. Bad analogy, lol.

After which, Andrea Vivien and I had a sudden craving for MacDonald's breakfast, so we went to eat at bedok. HAH. Guess what, we wanted to watch leap years so much that we actually went to check whether it was shown in PRINCESS CINEMA. LAUGH OUT LOUD. They've the most inappropriate work attire there, like those you wear when you're going to sleep on a cooling night. HAH. They don't have popcorns, nachos, anything. They had to fold the posters in order to fit them into the frame, one word: BUDGETED. LOL at least they had a computerised system, those available seats are shown on a computer, imagine it was 100% man labour, HAH. Imagine seeing those people there painstakingly crossing out the seats taken up using a pencil in case they cancelled the wrong one they can still use an eraser. =) I know it's rather mean but you can't deny it's funny. Anyway, I watched Initial D at PRINCESS. *LAUGHS* 

They didn't have leap years there! AWWW! :( Or else we wouldn't mind watching it at PRINCESS, seriously. Once in a lifetime experience. Too much of GV would be too boring. (H)

We stood outside Mac, trying to get hold of GV's number to check the timeslot of Leap years. While doing that, a guy holding the hands of her dearest girlfriend, looking so sweet together, went up the staircase going to PRINCESS. Andrea was the first to spot them then she kept pointing in their direction while trying to control her laughter to make us notice them. When we did, we laughed. HAH! 

Can you imagine your boyfriend bringing you to PRINCESS to catch a movie in the future? (??)

"Eh, want to watch movie anot?"
"Sure."
"Okay then we meet at bedok interchange."
LOL.

Gosh I can't believe I spent my day TRAINING when the 4A girls went to Kuishinbo to eat buffet lunch. Ohmygod, and they'll be indulging in donuts while I smell my stinking sweat in the humid indoor stadium. Zzz. So I nearly died for training, literally. 20 minutes run killlllled me. Or rather, the drills that followed. Sprints sprints sprints, agility, sprints again. ZZZ. 

I believe the bookshop auntie has successfully screwed me up because apparently she did not make the record of Andrea and I purchasing the lockers, and the school claims that we're using unauthorized lockers, like what the hell?! I've already paid, just that I didn't get any receipt, I don't see the reason why I need any receipt when the bookshop auntie had already made a record. And now the school's telling me they can't find our records. My goodness. And they've locked our lockers with their locks after taking out our locks, until we clear the misunderstanding. I strongly believe it's the bookshop auntie's negligence/oversight that caused it, because she can actually think that we're still living in 2003 because she wrote under the "Date of purchase" Day-Month-03!!!! I will not be surprised if she misplaced the record or something. And now I have to clear up the mess. 

Rochelle and Elizabeth called to ask me whether I had Leeying's address and they wanted to go to her house and surprise her. I dread these kind of home invasion. hah.

"Do you know where Leeying live? Can give us the address?"
"Huh? I don't know where she lives."
"Oh okay, nevermind."
"You all can try calling Cihui, maybe she knows."
"Okay, then can we have your address? We want to give you surprise."
"Eh, now that I know, how can it be a surprise?"
hahah. innocent kids. ^^

Lots for national round: 
Champion: MGS
1st runner-up: North Vista
2nd runner-up: Anglican High
3rd runner-up: St Margarets

Copper(II) Cophate rocks. =) Finally I've finished typing my SUPER LONG post. 

Thanks copper for dropping me a message on MSN! Thanks alot, at least I know mango reminds you of me, HAH! Sorry I couldn't make it due to my retarded training but I'm really touched to know my presence is quite important. =DDD

OMG.

We totally kick ass today, and I still can't believe that we actually managed to advanced into top4. SAC lost to Dunman by the same no. of goals, but we won PRCS by 12. Anyway, the people in there isn't really kind and sad to say, they have NO sportsmanship at all. All they were trying to do was to stall for time to avoid a thrashing too bad. 

That's not the main point. Well the main point is: We're still in the game and our season is not ending just here. There's still more matches to go. hahah. Good job people! Let's continue to work it! ^^

Special thanks to shuttlers, basketballers, table tennis guys who came down to support, we're all thankful for that because that was quite a big influence and encouragement. lol. We did it, nearly missed it. After going through this, I don't want to experience it again, to put ourselves in such a precarious situation is really bad. 

We've lost everything, and we've gained them back again. Next match with TKGS, the last time we played with them, we were only short of 4 goals. Trust me, this time we're gonna return victorious. Playing in the stadium, especially for 1st/2nd is so tempting, and I'll go to any extent to get it. :)

I think we really treasured the games more now, after nearly being knocked out of a triangle. =) Man, jiayou people. It's time to show the school that netball is able to achieve something. And when we do it, we do it well, and we make it big. =D 

Apparently we got upset with each other after yesterday's game with Dunman. Well, they did caught us by surprise, because according to coach SAC was a stronger team. Alright, we've underestimated them. It was the first time I felt that there's another team out there who could challenge us in terms of speed, but that was only for the first two quarters. 

Anyway, we had a team talk today and everyone thrashed everything out, supposedly. Tomorrow might just be our last game, and that's definitely not the way to end our season, especially when it's our last year. Okay, we can only blame it on ourselves for not treasuring the past two games, but we'll make it up tomorrow, the rest will take care of itself. I sincerely pray that I will not cock up last minute and screw up the play or stuff like that. I hope everyone's on form and we can do many many many interceptions. =D 

Frankly, I can't bring myself to accept the fact if tomorrow's really the end of our season. I'd most probably break down. I don't want to start being a no-life freak so soon. 

I consider us lucky for the SAC game because we managed to put in 2 goals in 22 secs which made the draw, or else they'd take the game by then. The SAC coach said her girls were happy that they managed to draw us. Sometimes I'd think, are we really that good/fast? Do we really have the potential. So coach had a talk with us to thrashed things out, I was really sorry as she commented on the game. She suffered from insomnia the whole night while I happily went off to lalaland. I didn't know that it mattered that much to her.

'I just know that if I don't come down today and clarify things with all of you, I'd most probably take the blame should we lose to Dunman. If I don't make a trip down today, I'm sure I'll regret.' Okay, that really made me reflect and did some soul-searching. 

Past weeks made me learn that pressure is not an excuse. Which individual does not face any pressure at all? I mean Dunman felt equally pressurized when they played with us, SAC was tensed up too, but we just can't let go of that want-to-do-well-so-badly mentality. And it did cost us 2 games. Tomorrow, we can prove everyone otherwise, and that's the last chance. LAST CHANCE. 

I'm sure it'll be emotional tomorrow. I just hope we'll come out of the court, feeling satisfied. 

It's time to perform people, cast aside whatsoever feelings/emotions, let's go in and PLAY. =)

Apparently I LOST MY POST. I LOST ALL THE THOUGHTS I'VE TYPED DOWN, and I don't bother retyping.

My main point is:
7th march. 

I'll never want to drink coke for the noticeboard anymore. One whole table of 4a girls drinking coke, how miserable. Our ratatouille noticeboard turned out to be fine, which was worth the effort and I guess many of us sacrified chemistry test for it. Way to go! =D

We did OSCAR today. It was some career related SEL programme. lol. I'm a Social Adminstrative Investigate person, which means I'm a SAI person. HAH. And I realise I'm cut out to be a CASHIER, whose monthly income is around $800-$1000. That's pathetic.

I brought back chemistry TYS, planning to study for the test the next day. AND I JUST WENT TO SLEEP WITHOUT EVEN FLIPPING THROUGH. AND THEN THE WHOLE OF TYS QUESTIONS WERE SMACKED RIGHT IN THE CENTRE OF THE COMMON TEST PAPER. T.T

The weather's been rather bad these days, which got us into a consecutive-tournament-days situation. Like Thursday Friday Monday Tuesday, with a bonus, i.e. training on saturday. (Y)(Y) There goes my sleep.

Little things.
Like the pancake Rochelle made for me during HomeEc
LIke the hug Graci gave me.
Like the sms Leeying sent me.

I will do better with these. I WILL. I will not disappoint my team mates. =D

Donkey years since I've last posted, so I'm finally here to update. Sometimes I wanted so badly to pen down my thoughts but I just couldn't find time, now I'm forsaking the time to study Biology to blog.

SEL was rather fun, here's an interesting video. We are the master procrastinators! ;D 
 
GET MY STUFF DONE. 

I HAVE TO GET RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRREADDY.



Amanda left! :( It's my first and last picture I took with her. Zzzz.

4A's fed up with the calendar business, and that's when the treasurers are dead. It's been hard chasing after people for money. I bet people flee at the sight of me, HAH. treasurers equates to more payment. The whole so-called fund-raising was really oxymoronic, it started off with 'strongly encourage' to 'compulsory'. I mean everyone is protesting, I think asking our dearest principal to stop having designs on the school fund to revamp her general office would be a much better solution. THIS MAKES ME SO WANT TO GET OUT OF AHS. ASAP.

There's been some changes with regards to the netball in-charge. Luo laoshi and Mrs/Mdm Rosemary joined us this year, hope they can cope with the new environment and handle us well. =D

Saturday was annual NETBALL WELCOME AND FAREWELL '08! =D Seniors came back and hey, it was great to see them back to AHS. :) The new secondary 1s were there too. Think this year had broken Anglican's record of newcomers, there were 14-15 juniors which is like WOWWWWW, and we didn't get enough presents. =X There were lots of games going on, the best was water bombs! lol, Amanda Tan became the target of everyone and of course she didn't escape dry. =D

Then Elizabeth and Rochelle splashed the whole pail of water onto me, (Y). lol. I thought our impromptu-ness managed to get us somewhere,  the party was considered a success! =D Credits to all. ^^ Trust it or not, we sang <<The Golden Path>> theme song, without even ONE rehearsal. =DD

Seniors took turns to speak. All of a sudden thoughts came flooding into my mind. Vividly, I remembered the first time I stepped into AHS for training. I remembered Cihui and Geraldine getting all excited because they finally became Secondary 2s and the juniors are going to call us SENIORS. =D Time really went past fast. I'm leaving the school soon. Each batch come and go, 4 years ain't as long as you think. Treasure. I really want to achieve something this year, for myself, for the team. I can't believe it's my turn next year.



ROCHELLE! <3333333333333333333333333333

I took a picture with Elize-jie!!!!!!!! Felt so honoured! ^^ 

Went down to support the juniors for their game with Greenview. They returned victorious! =D I'm so proud of everyone, especially TANYING, MVP OF THE DAY! HAH! They got so much praises and most probably they're going to top the table. =D All the way juniors, continue to work it. ^^ Compared to us, indeed they're so much better. :)

Cihui's getting more and more feminine as the days pass. =D

True, I'm definitely significant to somebody, even if it's just someone, I'm still significant. I hope I'm not redundant.

Had a game with Yio Chu Kang today. Ohmygod, they're godly rough and pushy. Yes, they went to the extent that Louisa injured her ankle, Elize fell down twice, and we were all complaining. I wanted so much to ram the ball into the GD's face, she's so irritating. Recover soon Louisa! =D I felt like a SUPER xinling today, will this suffice geraldine? =) I'm recalling facts at random. 

Is it really that hard to pop a question? Rather than further misunderstandings, why not clarify? Is it really that hard to just open your mouth and ASK? Our friendship is just so fragile, one sentence from others and it gets ruined. Just why, true friendship can handle anything. And at the end of the day, if you ever find out about the truth, I'm sure it's too late to regret.

I saw Dunman #12, HAH! Tomorrow's time to hit the books, biology and chemistry tests coming up. OH NO.